A long overdue post. Could have blogged earlier if i haven't left my laptop charger in the clubhouse(as usual..).

Sighs. Had a random talk the other day at the clubhouse. Fun was there, with ziqin, cheryl, and jiayi and chienwen. I believe the main topic was about life as boys and girls, but you know how these type of things has the tendency to go off topic. Somehow, in the middle of all the chatter, we diverted from the topic to the ideal wife/husband, the criteria before one dates another and other random gossips. I did try to 'randomly' ask a question to the group, like it was just a passing thought, but i'm pretty sure ziqin, and maybe cheryl, knew what i was referring to. Astonishingly, everyone had pretty much the same 想法, and i was quite surprised that i had not even come across that possibility. It does makes sense though, and if it's true, then there is no sense in holding on right..? So, what now? A human's emotions doesn't come with an on/off switch. 不能说开就开，说关就关.

Went to jiayi house last friday night. Well actually, by the time we reached, it was already saturday morning, so yeah. And by 'we', there was me with meihar, huiyi, avier, ziqin, ken, steve(who was already at jiayi's place before any of us reached), and of course, jiayi. Remembered to bring my laptop, also brought along a multi-tap in case jiayi's room has not enough outlet, but left my charger in the clubhouse. Fantastic. End up i played 'Fatal Frame II' on jiayi's PS2 to scare myself silly. After awhile some of the people went to make sushi. Oh, speaking of sushi..

Each of you guys owe me $3.50 for the ingredients. Pay up pay up!!

Anyway, i tried the bottle of Hooch i bought earlier. With an alcohol content of only 5%, it was no different from a bottle of orange juice. We started playing 'King of Fighter' after that. First time i see KOF on 3D. so swakoo.. lol. Winner of each round gets 1 shot of Abosulut Vanilla. The alcohol content was 40%, something known as 'nit/neat' or something. I think i won 3 rounds, earning 3 shots. I did drink twice more in place of Steve, who was being so anti-alcoholic. This was my first time i really got to drink. It left quite a burning sensation in my throat. Jiayi's Absolut evetually ran out and was replaced with ken's Absolut Citrus-or-something-like-that. It smelt like some bathroom soap. So down went another 2 shots. Ken's Absolut didn't taste any better then jiayi's, but it was wayyy 'spicer'. And so, there was the first 7 shots of my life. Wooo, what an experience. Transcended 5 levels of brain trauma.

Stage 1 - 40% Light-headed. 60% Sober.
Stage 2 - 40% Heavy-headed. 60% Sober.
Stage 3 - 60% Heavy-headed. Rapidly decreasing soberness.
Stage 4 - 90% Heavy-headed. 10% Drunk.
Stage 5 - KO`ed

Though i puked and felt like shit later when i woke up, it was still kind of fun 'cause tis thy first drinking session..lolzers! Now i know just how much my alcoholic level is roughly around. A pathetic 7 shots.. jeez that's not even a quarter of ken's record. I suck big time at drinking.

Still had quite a headache after i woke up, so i was really looking forward to the prospect of lying in my own bed after leaving jiayi's place. However, i was due to meet huijia for shopping at bugis. If i had remembered that earlier, i probably wouldn't have drunk as much. I didn't choose not to go 'cause she didn't manage to find any other people, we had sort of arranged this a week before, AND i could tell she was having another one of those bad days. So good ole' me naturally had to accompany my 女儿. (x

But oh my god, of all place why bugis street >.>

Shall skip details of shopping spree, 'cause i can tell this is going to turn out to be one hell of a long post.

Okay, Monday, 28th January.

Very weird day at clubhouse. For one, ziqin and qiuyun wanted to go for dinner extra early that day, like only at 7p.m.. True, it might not sound very early to some of you, but take in mind that SCC dinner traditional starts somewhere past 9.30 p.m. at night. Tried to convince jiayi to fly steve aeroplane to the gym and go dinner with us. He was quite caught in the middle between friend and food. Steve also told jiayi that he don't want to force him to go gym, 'cause he don't want to spoil their 'relationship'. In the end, jiayi stuck to his obligating friendship loyalty to steve and went gyming while the girls went to KAP first. I stuck around at clubhouse to wait for the guys to return. So end up we met tup with the girls somewhere close to 10p.m. i believe. Everyone was sharing what happened the other day at jiayi's place. Ziqin claimed i tried to 'molest' her legs in my semi-comatose state, in which i have no recollection of. So, everyone had lots of good laughs.

Left KAP at 11p.m.. Suddenly my mind started in go in overdrive, with unhappy thoughts pre-dominating my state of mind. Because ziqin took the same bus as me, i got to talk with her about what was bothering me.

Thanks ziqin, for listening. (=

itstimeforachange.somethingextreme.


Ok, ok. I promise this is the last(maybe second last) paragraph for this post.

Wednesday, 30th January.

That was like, just hours ago. Performed on the bass for the very first time for Monthly Peformance. I have to say not too bad, granted my strumming for the last chorus messed up just a little. Damn, the bass is fun. But tough on my two left fingers. =/

Only 5 songs were performed this time, and 2 of them can't even be counted because they were performed before last last year. They were added just because there was really only 3 songs that day. Good thing i didn't rush any song for this MP. What's the point of letting people rate my songs if there were only 4 performed? I want my songs to be ran fully through a gauntlet of other song genres, wider range of audience, and of course, MORE SONGS. This way, my song can really be rated as compared to the others more accurately.

After MP was done (once again early, might i add), most of the people went to KAP for dinner (again, as usual) while a few others went to 'Halobar' for some karaoke session. Ok, i don't know what to blog from this point. Pretty much the same random stuffs and craps you would expect when SCC people comes together. Oh, by the way, for the record:

FUN owes me $5.55 for his McNuggets meal.

Yes, as you can probably tell, i'm pretty realistic when it comes to the topic of money. I probably have some other hidden debts that i have forgotten about. I can't be having that, especially since my wallet seems to be empty most of the time. I do treat people too much. That's the problem with me i guess. Free and easy with my limited resource of cash.

OKAY, THAT'S LIKE ENOUGH OF BLOGGING.

This is probably my longest post to date. Took me the longest time to post this too.

I started on Tuesday, around 1 p.m.. The day and time now is Thursday, 3.17 p.m..

So yeah, you do the math. (x



リオ

Why do you want to change me? I like me the way i am now. Don't you consider my feelings and repercussions in doing so? It's 'tradition'? Oh please. Wake up and smell the flowers if you would. This is the 21st century, hello? Don't make me hate you even more.

Feeling regretfully all of a sudden, due to the one event. 2 years ago. I was a fool then, didn't knew any better. Now i'm paying the price for that mistake. Sure, it might sound silly, a "you'll-get-over-it" kind of deal to all of you, but in truth, to me, it's not. I didn't have the courage back then, my idiocy got the better of me.

the bitter taste of loneliness.

先苦后甜? You'd be a fool to believe that.
永恒的苦? That sounds about right.

Songs to write, but in a state of moodless-ness.

Be aware of the things you say. You might inadvertently blurt out something offending, and you don't even mean it.

Mood spoiler day through and through, but kept it going in front of everyone. Don't want to appear weak in front of them. How long can i keep it up, i wonder

生病了。要多喝水，多休息。
好好照顾自己。(=

After years of getting an earful, you just sort of get used to it. That doesn't mean getting an immunity to it though. It's like.. for the case of immunity, the words goes in one ear, slips through the brain and exits the other ear. Getting used to it is like, the nags go in one ear, processes a little, just a wee bit, in the brain, then exits the other ear. The latter does kinda dampens the mood a little. Ah well. Parents. You truly never can satisfy them.

On another note, shall we? Went out with huijia and ziqin yesterday. Jia's laptop's hard disk crashed, so we went sim lim to look for one. I wasn't even supposed to join them, just that when jia called me to enquire about internal hard disk price range (which, i have no clue about), she conveniently asked me to tag along. Since my agenda for the rest of the day was to spend quality time with my bed, i thought why not. I could also check out the prices of external hard disks.

We went burger king for lunch 1st before going hard disk shopping. Jia was doing her usual gossiping with ziqin. i felt a little off there, like kind of intruding. Some of the stuffs they were talking about, i mean, don't they mind my presence? True, they weren't talking 'bout any wrong stuffs, or planning some uprising against the government, but, i don't know. Just feel erking weird to hear them gossip, though it was kind of interesting, lolzers!

Oh yeah, before that, huijia and ziqin were walking in front of me talking when ziqin suddenly just turn around and asked me something. The moment itself was quite off enough, but the what she asked me was like, damn 'off-er'. I thought it was huijia who told her about it, but apparenly, everyone already knew about it. Okay, she said not everyone, just most. I was like, what's the difference?

I had no idea that this nugget of information was known to everyone. Talk about living in oblivion. It's kind of troubling to me.


damn.

Never thought i could be this early for class. 2 hours to be exact. That's 'cause i reached home on monday afternoon, somewhere after 12, after the new year celebration at clubhouse with some SCC people. Slept for more then 10 hours straight. Couldn't sleep after waking up at around close to 12 a.m.. So spent the remaining hours watching videos before going to school.

And now, i just got chased out of the studio 'cause i was wearing slippers instead of shoes. Pffft whatever, i'll just wait 2 hours outside. No biggie.


p.s. i kept forgetting to 'kop' concert posters from anywhere, damn.

i made a special wish just for you, but i guess you won't know what it was. Or even know that i made it just for you.

a flurr of emotions whirled throughout the night. can't really think much.

happy new year everyone. sorry to be such a drag in your celebrations.